Doppelgänger (Kingston), 2011
Digital C-Print, 20" x 25"
"As A Real House," a series which has been growing and transforming over several years, evolved from previous work, which sought memory, lost time, and hints of the absent-present in landscapes, rooms, and objects. "As A Real House" turns these ideas inward, departing from a critical exploration of the sentimental and the sweet, and moves into darker corners of remembrance, identity, and invention. The work explores my futile attempt to study time by stopping it mid-decay, while looking at the medium of photography and my own desire through a prism, breaking them apart into their elements, their beams of color. "As A Real House" traces my search for the possible and impossible within photography, my desire to understand how ideas and memories are trapped inside, like layers of rock. By looking concurrently at different scales, I hope to reveal the vulnerability of both subject and medium, to expose all bodies as written texts, to watch as one system overtakes another. I seek to partition and catalog photography’s viscera through intentionality and accident, to draw its hushed footsteps along the boundary of the real and the invented, the immediate and the hidden, the desirable and the grotesque.
The series comprises various explorations of image-making and multiple genres – within this, the images may range from the seemingly straight to the experimental. The possible disjointedness of these studies is purposeful: it is my hope that the viewer question the connections and possible contradictions among the images in the body of work as I have presented it. "As A Real House" asks questions but does not necessarily provide answers. The work itself is rooted in metaphor, meant to be interrogated, as one would read a poem. Herein, one can view desires both personal and universal, as well as uncertainties and doubts about femininity and identity.
The original photographs were shot primarily as 4" x 5" negatives on a view camera, though one was shot digitally and some have been manipulated in post-production. The series also includes one reproduced Polaroid and one photograph of a color negative. Final images are printed at various sizes ranging from 24" x 30" to 11" x 13.75". They are printed as digital c-prints with a matte UV laminate, or as archival pigment prints, mounted and fit straight in to walnut-stained maple frames with no borders or glazing.